more lessons.

"Be still and know that I am God." I cried these words last night in a prayer with a friend on the phone. Seriously. I could only repeat it over and over and tears dropped down my cheeks. Although my friend and I have complete different circumstances, there is a commonality. There are things we can't control in life. As we talked, it was so clear how out of control we are in life when we think we are in control.
Rewind a few hours earlier. Another humbling fall. I sneezed and took a face plant onto the concrete driveway as my body reacted violently to my bodily function. My sister who is a OT would cringe if she read this (thank goodness she doesn't read my blog) and respond, "strap yourself in that chair!" Let that go. I'm learning a lesson here. I don't want or need your pity or advice. I realize a seat belt would immediately fix the problem. Humor me this time, (and probably many more) I am learning that I have a disease that I can not control. "Be still and know that I am God".
I know that I can do things that will help me deal with this disability. And today with the painful scrapes on my face  AGAIN, I take a deep breath and exhale with tears and laughter. It doesn't make sense. My friends suffering, my suffering, your suffering...I guess it doesn't have to. All I need to do is live Psalm 41:10: "Be still and know that I am God. Be still and know that I am God. Be still and know that I am God."...

My posts have been lacking because all my attention has been directed to these two. How sweet it is.